Down with My Ship

I wrote this poem a while back and it's probably one of my favorites...thought I'd share it with anybody who cares to read it :)

Extending your arms

They beg for my touch

As close as an inch

The pressure's too much

I sense the wind's thoughts

They rage against me

And pull on my heels

To leave for the sea

It's just like before

But this time you stay

I gaze in your eyes

But I'm being swept away

Unlike your leave

It was never my choice

When you walked away

No words with your voice

I can't help but go

My passion has strength

I'm romanced by life

To such a great length

Life seems too short

To live like we do

And so my heart dives

And seeks something new

So loved are the depths

Where no one can breathe

So cold and alone

So lost in the deep

I wish you were here

I'd drink in the storm

Engulfed in desires

You're losing your form

Hold in your breath

And brace for impact

I won't be there

To keep you intact

As you lose sight

I will see ever clear

The blue magnifies

Everything I have feared

If only you knew

The love I control

But life isn't fair

Or so I am told

You're on the bow of

A capsizing ship

Whose mast splinters down

And breaks off the tip

Darling, hold on

I can't just let go

The wind won't give up

It howls with each blow

Your hands are so small

So warm to my lips

I'd love them till death

Go down with my ship

I'm slipping away

I'm losing my sight

Deep in the distance

You're giving a fight

Darling, hold on

I'm losing my grip

My heart yells, "Go down,

Go down with your ship."

Vanity of Vanities

Though I hear and though my eyes can see

I'm not full, I'm not full

Though the wisdom of all me is in me

It's all dull, it's all dull

It's all grasping for the wind

Every pleasure has been touched by me

They're all gone, they're all dead

Even if I could gain the world

It's all toil that must end

It's all grasping for the wind

I hear your words like a passing train

I'm too concerned with life to jump in

I've turned my head off towards the edge

You call for me

I can't undo the things I've done to you

Against you have I sinned

I know you'd say my life could be made clean

This can't be, it can't be

It's all grasping for the wind

I hear your words like a passing train

I'm too concerned with myself to jump in

My head is facedown, stuck in my hands

You call for me

You're the just and the justifier

You lived the life I failed and you died

You're not a man that you should lie

You're God and I'm not

I won't turn back, It's out of my mind

This life is too short to live by my own might

I won't look back, You're all that I need

This moment defines who I am, who I'll be

In your eyes

As the Ruin Falls

This poem has influenced my poetry quite possibly more than any other. So I thought I'd post it for all to read. It is by C.S. Lewis and it is called As the Ruin Falls. Enjoy:

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through:
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love --a scholar's parrot may talk Greek--
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.

Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.

For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains. 

I Often Wish I were Someone Else

I often wish I were someone else
You’d look at me so differently
But I guess I cant just go back
To retrace my steps and create new tracks

I think I see my prints ahead
I only know a single shape
But not enough to realize
These feet have seen this muddy place

So break out the guns
Im going unsure
I see no hope
I sense no cure

I keep my mind in steady thought
And reason out the hope I have
A blissful wish to live again
But just a wish, nonetheless

Ever ready I keep my pace
To see the end, experience taste
This is the first and last I’ll know
I would have it no other way

My brows are fixed and not a word
Is slipped out from my grinding jaw
I gnash my teeth to feel a pulse,
To wish that I were someone else

Oh! The way it could have felt
I wish that I were someone else
Im just the dust upon the shelf
Now I’ve become somebody else

How Convenient

I saw you dancing, what a sight to see

How you move so smooth

Like the wind carries the leaves

You look so beautiful; beautiful girl

All of a sudden I feel light headed

Like I'm drifting in to space

I've heard that's what love is

But love is a distant star

All of a sudden I feel like dancing

Embrace you in my arms

I've heard that's what love is

But love is a distant star

I saw a hint of something I once knew

How we'd sit and stare

I'd hold you and think you're so

Beautiful; oh you're so beautiful

All of a sudden I feel light headed

Like I'm drifting in to space

I've heard that's what love is

But love is a distant star

All of a sudden I feel like dancing

Embrace you in my arms

I've heard that's what love is

But love is a distant star

Passive Wrath

All eyes are waiting for the sign

Of a wrath that destroys even time

For something that none but God can do

An act of justice

You send fire and maybe we'll believe

Show your hand enough for us to see

Then maybe, yes maybe we'd believe

That you are God

This can't be what's right

You've got to show us more

Prove who you are

By your power

We're asleep or all blind

If we'd wake up we'd see what's been done

We're like flies who are stuck in a web

Drawn in by our own will

If we'd open our eyes to the truth

We'd see how we've all replaced you

With small gods who can't save

Seeing is what we need to trust 

Without sight, you're wrath seems just a bluff

So show us, and then we'll follow you

Us humans are all such fools

Turn back, repent all men!

The kingdom is here and not yet

The idols we worship will all die

This here is his passive wrath

Choose now who you follow

Until Love Pleases

I'm in love with you,

Dear girl in the dark

Your name I know not

Yet I have your mark

Between us, a heart

Inscribed on a tree

In a park I can't find

The words I can't read

In front all is black

Step not out just yet

Soon time will stop

Catch us in its net

Until God declares

That we then are good

I'll sit and I'll dream

My darling, come soon